Just Teasin'

I didn't tell the sexes yesterday because Aidan and I agreed we wanted to tell my father and stepmother about the babies before my mother and sister read about it and then blatantly blabbed it to my father, as they've done with other things.  We wanted to tell them ourselves first.  We're going public as I can't keep my own secrets (it's why I blog, really.  That whole "Watergate" thing, I totally could've kept that thing secret, but if I do something like shoot a suppository out of my ass then I have to tell the whole fucking world.)

Throughout the entire process of IVF, my insides have been telling me things.  I’m not one who’s very clued up about my body, who knows what’s going on, but I’ve been able to understand what’s been going on.  Without being too gory, I remember miscarrying last August.  At one point I passed a blood clot – it was one of many – but I thought to myself at the time “That was it.  That’s the pregnancy gone I think.”  And although I don’t know at what point I lost the pregnancy, I did indeed miscarry.

This cycle has been similar.  After the embryo transfer I got pretty calm.  I couldn’t prove that it worked but something in the back of my head told me that it might do.  I didn’t know until the approved test day if it worked or not, but when I peed on that stick I somehow felt that it would come up with two lines, I somehow just believed that it worked. 

And it did.

When one of the babies turned up with a bad nuchal scan, again I can’t explain it but I just knew that the baby was fine.  Just knowing wasn’t security enough for either of us, particularly when a second scan made the results sound even scarier than our initial results, but a CVS reassured our minds.  The first test reports came back negative for Down’s, and then the rest of the genetic profiling came back telling us that the baby had completely normal genetic karyotyping. 

I felt so strongly that the baby was completely ok, and it was. 

It’s as Amy said, I should just trust my instinct.  I’ve never been very good with that, my instinct-o-meter is way, way off most of the time.  Aidan says that for men, they “feel it in their water”, but that’s not a term I understand.  It implies some kind of knowing to me, some kind of intuition that I feel I genuinely lack. 

More after the jump, in case you don't want to know.

In this pregnancy, I’ve felt very strongly that our CVS baby is a little boy. 

I’ve felt that our other baby is a little girl.

And I was right about both and I’m absolutely over the moon about it.

Comments

[Amanda]

I knew it, I knew it!!!
That is wonderful. Any other combination would be just as glorious, but now you have one of each! YAY!
I'm sure the kids are thrilled too.

[Deborah]

I am so very, very happy for all of you, Beautiful Girl. Congratulations.

[caltechgirl]

So I guess you have the names all settled, now that you know who is who? ;-)(as if!)

I was honestly hoping you wouldn't tell, and you would keep dropping hints.

I am over the moon for all of you!

[wRitErsbLock]

YAY!

[M]

Huge Congrats!!! That is wonderful that you are getting one of each...not that anything wouldn't have been wonderful....but still. Congrats again!!!!

[Boliath]

Congratulations!

[hopefulmother]

Awesome!!

[sophie]

Wonderful, awesome, so happy for all of you!

[May]

How wonderful. I'm sitting here smiling all over my silly girt face reading this (as my grandmama would say. Me, I don't even know what girt means).

[Carol]

oh no! you caved! Now I'm the only one in the whole blogosphere who's not finding out. I feel so alone. ;-)

Seriously though - very, very happy for you that things are going so well. And that your instincts are continuing to lead you in the right direction.

A boy and a girl! That's just wonderful! Congratulations!

[Kimberly]

OMGOMGOMGOMG! Congratulations!!! I don't think I could possibly be more happy for you.

[Cori]

OH MY GOSH!!!!! CONGRATS!!!!

[Tinker]

Oh how wonderful! That's just so perfect!

[Victoria]

Wheeeeeeeee!!! One of each...how utterly P E R F E C T!!

Congratulations!

[Victoria]

Wheeeeeeeee!!! One of each...how utterly P E R F E C T!!

Congratulations!

[Margi]

You know, you've just been *positive* this whole time; and it IS an instinct thing, isn't it? You'll tell the babies about how you just *knew* about them before they were born. And they'll ask you to tell that story over and over.

And that instinct will serve you well.

They call it Mother's Intuition.

I'm so happy for you, sweetheart.

Love and hugs,

[Patience]

Absolutely gorgeous!

[Kath]

Oh, Vanessa, that is wonderful!!

[MsPrufrock]

Yay! What a great combination. I got a bit teary, but that may largely be due to the fact that I'm listening to "In the Aeroplane Over the Sea" by Neutral Milk Hotel and I'm a big sap.

Congratulations.

[Radish]

How wonderful! CONGRATS!!

[amy t.]

You mean I actually said something that helped? Me? The girl who always picks something silly to focus her comment on? I was speaking from the heart, and I'm glad it stuck.

You're going to be an incredible mother, babe.

[canape]

That is so cool. Girl and boy.

And I love that you have been able to trust your instincts even when you have had valid reasons for concerns. I think that is an amazing quality.

[megan]

yea! that's perfect!

[Erin]

How exciting--congratulations to all of you!

[jenny]

Great news! The little boy/girl combo, an IVF dream come true!